everything has an option to make.. between right and wrong.. but what should i choose? .. is everything worth it? .. is everything i am doing right? .. do i deserve it? .. i sound so like an emo.. but these questions are just always in my head.. and i cant seem to get the right answer.. Maybe somethings are meant to be not answered.. everything that happens has the pros and cons... it is just frustrating sometimes to keep assuming and keep doubting .. maybe it's time for me to find out the truth.. and to not shelter it behind me.. not bothering bout it.. the truth is always so hard to tolerate and things aren't simple as i think .. but when u think of it.. life is fun eh? .. love , joy , happiness , family , friendship.. it is just worth living.. I've been such an emo.. I AM AN EMO!! and i have no regrets saying that out.. i am sorry that i made you guys sad as i was sad.. but sometimes i just feel that inside me is slowly falling apart.. and now it seems like it is just starting to patch up.. i know that it is useless to think of the past.. but when i fight it more .. it haunts me more! ... sigh man!! LIFE is really.. HAHA.. no word can describe it.. even though how much u think of dying.. there is just something that makes u feel meaningful again.. sometimes.. u feel like you are being a burden to people.. but things aren't always what u see it as i guess.. there's a lot more for me to learn out there!!
Anyways.. MERRY CHRISTMAS!!
